Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Don't want him to go...

I often see posts about spouses who are missing their significant others because they are on business trips, are stuck in another city due to bad weather, or just haven't made it home from work yet. I fight my brain as it delves into jealous mode: "well mine is a world away and I can't talk to him, I don't know if he is OK, I don't know when he is coming back, AND he is NOT coming back tomorrow or a week from now---try 6 months". AHHH--stop the madess!! I fight the jealousy, I fight feeling sorry for myself, I fight it. Then I think again...I think, "my GOD I do not wish this on anyone!"

What I have learned in the soon-to-be two years of us being apart is this (6 months in Iraq, 10 months in FL, 4 month in CA, 6 months in Afghanistan...we have been together 9 years this summer-WOW!)...I have learned that distance TRULY does make the heart grow fonder. I LOVE him and cannot wait to see him when he comes back. I have learned that I am so much stronger than I thought I was. I have learned that soon (yes, there is a light) we will be able to put the deployments behind us and we WILL get to live under the same roof until we drive each other crazy!!

Dave leaves tomorrow morning and will be on his way to Afghanistan for the next 6 months. We do not know when he will make it to Kandahar. The military leaves us wondering, as usual. The only good about him leaving tomorrow is that he is THAT much closer to making it home. I will continue to live my life (now to include retail therapy--thank you separation pay!), the way I live it when it is just me and my dog and by next month I will be in full swing of independent mode.

Prayers please!

8 comments:

Elicia said...

Thinking about you! Hang in there chickadee!

Kris said...

Love you Courtney! Prayers are being sent to both of you. Hang in there!

Life of Nhem said...

Hang in there darlin. Hopefully these months will pass quickly!!

Amber said...

Just know that Chris, Jensen and I are still there for you even though we are in GA. We love you guys and will be praying for you both!!!

Tiffany said...

Friend, please know that I WILL be praying for you. Today and over the next 6 months as you wait for Dave to come home. I am so thankful for men like him who serve our country and women like you who "loan" them to us and make such a deep sacrifice. I cannot imagine the hole in your heart while he's gone, but truly I will pray for God's peace, strength and joy to surround you and Dave in your time apart. XOXO

Mrs G said...

I completly understand. When Josh was in Iraq the first time, 16 months BTW, I used to get so mad when people would be like you dont understand, hes been gone 3 DAYS. I remember thinking, really? I havnt heard his voice in 2 months and fear creeps in stomach when the phone rings in the middle of the night. You cant understnad unless your in it and living it. It goes fast, and I know that means nothing right now, just keep thinking No News is Good News. Be strong, he will be home before you know it.

Katie Norwood said...

Courtney, I admire you. You are truly, truly stronger than me. I appreciate you and your husband and everything you both do so I can live a comfortable life. I really want to send packages, so would you email me a list of what they commonly need and request? Katie.Norwood@gmail.com.

Court, Dave, and Sully said...

Thank you ALL for your support! The previous post has the mailing address. Once he gets there, he will send me a list of needs/wants. At this point they do not know what their living conditions will be! I will keep you all posted :-)