Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Don't want him to go...
I often see posts about spouses who are missing their significant others because they are on business trips, are stuck in another city due to bad weather, or just haven't made it home from work yet. I fight my brain as it delves into jealous mode: "well mine is a world away and I can't talk to him, I don't know if he is OK, I don't know when he is coming back, AND he is NOT coming back tomorrow or a week from now---try 6 months". AHHH--stop the madess!! I fight the jealousy, I fight feeling sorry for myself, I fight it. Then I think again...I think, "my GOD I do not wish this on anyone!"
What I have learned in the soon-to-be two years of us being apart is this (6 months in Iraq, 10 months in FL, 4 month in CA, 6 months in Afghanistan...we have been together 9 years this summer-WOW!)...I have learned that distance TRULY does make the heart grow fonder. I LOVE him and cannot wait to see him when he comes back. I have learned that I am so much stronger than I thought I was. I have learned that soon (yes, there is a light) we will be able to put the deployments behind us and we WILL get to live under the same roof until we drive each other crazy!!
Dave leaves tomorrow morning and will be on his way to Afghanistan for the next 6 months. We do not know when he will make it to Kandahar. The military leaves us wondering, as usual. The only good about him leaving tomorrow is that he is THAT much closer to making it home. I will continue to live my life (now to include retail therapy--thank you separation pay!), the way I live it when it is just me and my dog and by next month I will be in full swing of independent mode.